Understanding One’s Motivation to Convert to Judaism

Conversion requires such a big life change that the motivations must be genuine and psychologically well grounded.

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If you are drawn toward the idea of conversion, it’s important to recognize your motivations. There are both positive and negative reasons for wanting to convert. Some motivations provide a strong base for your new religious identity; some provide a much weaker foundation. Look into yourself for any of the following negative motivations: unresolved anger at your own family or heritage, too much eagerness to please, a desire to submerge into the new family, or a desperate acquiescence in order to put an end to the pressure from your fiancé or his family. 

The desire to please is a matter of degree. Of course you want to please your spouse or fiancé and to be accepted by his family. But this alone is not a valid motivation. Conversion demands so much change of you that unless it has intrinsic satisfactions, it can throw off your inner balance. It can make you feel that your lifestyle is out of synch with the real inner you.

Unresolved anger is also a matter of degree. Every convert, by definition, has found her religion of birth unsatisfying. But if the dissatisfaction has become disgust or rage, a conversion is primarily a “statement” made in reaction to the past rather than a considered step made as part of adult development.

We recall one convert to Judaism who had been furious at the Catholic church of her childhood. But when her marriage fell apart, she found herself equally furious at Jews and Judaism and the pressure her ex-spouse’s Jewish family had placed on her to convert. She explored other Christian churches and finally realized that, with all its problems, the Catholic church had shaped her and she belonged there. After struggling through her angers at the Church, she was able to find a place where she could comfortably participate as her own kind of Catholic.

By defusing anger at the family, religion, and community of your childhood, you will be better able to decide if you belong in the new religion, the old one, or neither. The “motivation to merge” is seductive and difficult to acknowledge. For people who have gone through a period of religious experimentation or personal tumult, immersion in… a Jewish way of life can offer a welcome structure and stability. Jewish families often have a closeness that may be very attractive to a gentile who grew up in a more restrained family….

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Jim Remsen has given workshops throughout the United States for intermarried couples and parents of intermarried couples, as well as synagogues, Jewish Community Centers, and other Jewish organizations. He is currently Faith Life Editor of the Philadelphia Inquirer and lives in suburban Philadelphia.

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