Feeling Ready to Convert

Because becoming a Jew is an evolving process,


Excerpted with permission from Choosing a Jewish Life: A Handbook for People Converting to Judaism and for Their Family and Friends (Schocken Books).

This question does not occur to everyone. Some people know that they were meant to be Jews since childhood. Some people enter a synagogue and feel completely at home. Some people walk into the mikveh [ritual bath] without a single doubt or regret.


On the other hand, if the question is pressing upon you and something in your heart says “No,” listen. That is your answer–at least for now.

Sitting on the Fence Is Normal

But for many people, the answer is not yes or no but “maybe.” This puts you in an awkward spot–one foot in, one foot out. It’s not a comfortable position, but it’s completely normal and not a sign that you lack commitment or that Judaism is wrong for you. The fact is, you may never feel completely, utterly, confidently ready to become a Jew. “Maybe” may be as close you get. There is no external measure or sign, no report card, no blinding flash of light from on high to assure you that you’ve mastered the material and the time has come.

And yet, at some point your rabbi will say, “I think you are ready.” Which places you squarely on a platform facing a leap of faith.

You may have been up here before. People get married without being 100 percent certain of what marriage is going to be like. Nobody who becomes a parent for the first time has any idea of how much a baby will change his or her life. All of life’s major decisions are risky, dangerous, exhilarating.

The reasons for making any choice this big are never entirely cerebral. You choose Judaism because of the way your child loves Sunday school, because you’ve come to experience anti-Semitic remarks as personal attacks, because you love Mel Brooks, because of your relationship with your rabbi, because of the conversation at the Passover seder [ritual meal]. Because it feels right.

Something May Make the Crucial Connection

Sometimes, there is an epiphany. Your rabbi might tell you that you’ll be ready when you hear yourself say “us” instead of “them,” “we” instead of “you.” (This does not mean that you’ve made a terrible mistake when someday, inevitably, you slip and say “them” when you meant “us.” It happens.) One woman tells a story about jogging past a man reading a Hebrew book. She slowed down, realizing that she shared something important with this total stranger. “Shalom,” she said. He smiled and said, “Shalom.” The next day she called her rabbi to schedule her conversion.

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Anita Diamant is a writer. Her books include The New Jewish Baby Book, Choosing a Jewish Life, The New Jewish Wedding, Saying Kaddish, and The Red Tent, a novel. She lives in Newton, Massachusetts.

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